Jennifer's TG caps of Defiance

First and foremost, forgive me for not remembering how to do this. >_> Second, Hey! I can not begin to tell you how sorry I am for not updating all of you on the state of this blog. I know I kind of gave you a peek into what I was going through in my last post, but It didn't let you know that I was going to be gone for nearly 3 years!

Truth be told, I didn't want to come back. I missed all of you, believe me! I really, truly did! But, Stress was making this whole part of my life not fun. I knew that I needed to step away and step away fully if I needed to save this side of my self in anyway. It was so incredibly hard to do!

I realized that, (and if any of you know me) It was one of my little obbessions. In some weird way, I had let it take over a lot of my free time and devote way too much energy to this. I was pouring in passion and love, but than I wasn't getting a 100% return and I just felt unwanted by some in the community.

Now, I want to tell you that I have had my share of people in this community that are a poison and should be avoided. I could name names, but that is NOT the point of this post. Those people DO NOT MATTER! That's clearly stating the obvious, but when you pour so much of your self into something, those kind of people can ruin the whole thing.

I also realize that my obsession with this and all those things that come with that problem, also hurt close friends of mine. If you think your one of the ones I consider a poison, than that's what you are. Because if you can't see that I am here reaching out, spilling my guts and trying to find my way back and ask forgiveness, then this IS NOT for YOU!

This is for those that I truly care for and I am deeply sorry for also leaving you out of nowhere. again, I'm not naming names, because if you cared for me, than you know me. I did what I had to do to get better and while I do not know how well this return will go, I can say that I feel better now than I have in years!

I want to lay this out there now, I am sorry. I am sorry for letting so much poison my attitude and my time with all of you. I am sorry for treating those that cared for me poorly. I realized this a couple of years ago and I just quit cold turkey. I do not know if this means I will ever cap again, I just don't know if I have the privacy or the time for it. But I do know I feel closer to Jennifer these days and Something just compelled me to drop in and touch base with all of you.

I more than likely still have many of my bad habits. I say this because it took me so long to realize what was happening, even though it's pretty clear now. it was right there in my face, but I couldn't see it. I could feel it, but that was just perpetuating the harmful circle I was in.

So.. I don't know how to end this, except to say that I am sorry, I love you all. I have a lot of junk spam posts to clear...

That sounds a bit like the title of a caption title too, doesn't it? I want to first say, HEY! and I am soooo sorry for not saying a word to anyone this last year. Things have been.. different! to say the least.

First, I want to say that the most important change, is that my grandmother passed away. It was and still is very sad and I miss her every day. Especially with the upcoming birthdays and holidays. The first in my life that won't have her voice on the phone or face light up from a gift she received or gave. It was also a rather messy affair with some bull headed relatives, but i won't get into that here.

Second, I had to get a second job and help pull in some money. so that means that I have less time to do anything tg related. it dosen't help that privacy is at a premium around here and if i can any time to do anything, I might be one of my two jobs or surrounded by people who aren't that understanding of my hobby.

And finally, the lawsuit was settled between my family and the insurance company. We not only won, but we moved into a new, smaller house. It wasn't a painless ordeal or easy at all, but it was worth it. Saddly, our old house had to be demolished and things are still up in the air about that as well. But, the major thing is that we live in a new house that isn't about to fall on top of us. Though we were hit by a tornado and are currently having our roof repaired, but that's beside the point.

Again, i am sorry for my scilence. I'm not sure if i can return to capping at this point, and if i did, it would be very, very rare. But, I am here and I did miss every one of you. I Also had time to see just how depressed I was and the kind of rut my life my had become. My escape was this blog, but now I'm biking and I'm keeping so busy with both of my jobs, that, i guess i just don't have time for that sort of thing.

But, i wanted to thank everyone who kept me in their thoughts and prayers, (you know who you are.) And I wanted to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for helping to keep me going all of these years. Again, i'm sorry for the silence and I'm sorry if i go quiet now and again.

Title of today's post would make a great title for a caption, don't you think? Oh, by the way, I'm back! I've said this many times before, I know, but what i mean to say is, I'm back from San Antonio! WOO! No, i haven't been over there this entire time, but most of my time has been wrapped up with that and many, many personal issues, including my mom being admitted into the hospital for a week. ok, so, where to start?

Alright, i suppose I should start with my mom's stay in the hospital. WE all came down with a nasty bit of flu here while back and couldn't get over the cough. It got to my mom so bad that she pulled her musscles away from her adombinal wall. (ouch is an understatement!) She already has blood clots and takes blood thinner, so I'm afraid it lead to a fist sized clot in the injury. She's been out for about 2 weeks now and it's still hurting her. Any prayers and well wishes you have would be greatly appreciated!

How about the house now? Well, the only thing I can say about it, is that it's finally over! We got enough to possibly move out of the house, but not enough to repair the damages they let decay over time. So that is where we stand now, looking for a way out of this house before it falls in on us. I want to say SOOO much more about it, but that's basically it. it went very well and things are looking up!

San Antonio was a blast by the way! It was my first time spending the night, much less 3, in another city. Heck, my first time in a hotel! We did lots of free things around the city when we weren't handling the legal issues on the second day over there. Saw the north star mall, the river walk, the largest comic book store in the area and the Alamo! The river walk was just amazing! I might be a little star struck though, since it was my first "vacation" that lasted longer than an afternoon.

 I don't want to go into everything that's happened to me these last few weeks, or heck, months/years! Since it would just be depressing. But if we can move into a new house, I might have more privacy to cap and post! Since we got hit by that car all those years ago, we have been severely limited in our living space. It's a very exciting time, especially now that things have calmed down health wise and we can take a breather.

Thank you everyone for your well wishes and wonderful thoughts! Now let's hope I can have some fun this Halloween season! ^_^

PS: I hope I haven't lost my spot at the haven. Things being as crazy as they have been, I've had no chance to check or cap anyone back.

I know that I owe you all an apology, not excuses. But, I'm afraid that I have to give you both. As some of you may remember, My house was hit by a car about 3 years ago. What you don't know, it's STILL an issue. I can't say much, but there's been some legal issues and as of late, that seems to be coming to a head.

So, while all of that is working it self out, i rarely have any time to cap or to even hop on and say where I've been. Even now I'm panicking and looking over my shoulder to make sure no one is looking at my screen. Hopefully, when this is all said and done I will be able to get back into the game and share with you a few new pieces of work.

I am happy to say that this isn't bad news, so there is that! But, it just stinks not being able to even say hello. One bright spot though, when I'm not busy with the house or something else, I have been brushing up on a few new skills that i hope will open up my future. I won't say what, but it's very exciting for me. ^_^

Again, i'm sorry and i hope you all understand. Maybe next time I post, it will be a cap. actually, I'm sure of it! I do have to repay some caps at the haven after all. heh.

Wow, didn't know it had already been a month! Things have been kind of busy for me, But I have gotten to create a cap or two here and there. For example, today's!

My pc that I'm using at the moment is kind of giving me fits when i try to make a caption, some times it lets me do a more complex layout, (you have no idea how many panels it takes to make that curve!) and some times it won't even let me do a simple box with some text at the side.

In any case, I have a cap for you all and It's a dozy! It's based on those pig party's or loser party's, but with sissy's! Hope you girls enjoy. ^_^

*pinches self* Yep. still here! ^_^ And I bring you another hentai caption. Like the last one, the picture was so perfect I just couldn't let it go with out capping it. But unlike the last one, I actually had the idea for the story before hand.

SO, I spent like two day's looking for just the right scene/expression. I really think this one was tailor made for the story I had in my head.

Yes, i'm still here and I'm still capping. ^_^ I've been busy doing a little studying here and there, trying to expand my horizons as it were. But, I'm still making time for new captions.

This one was born entirely out of my desire to make a crossdressing anime cap. Once I saw this pic, I knew that it HAD to be this image. I mean look at it, it's perfect for a little public humiliation!