I'm sorry that today's post is not coming with a brand new caption, but I hope to have something to show to all of you soon. ^_^ Instead, I wanted to make a post as a thank you to those that have shown they care and kept me in their thoughts while I was away. It's all been very depressing and just hearing from my friends means a lot.
I would like to thank Mistress Mimi, Madame Tammy, Mister Brighton, Lady Katelyn, Cindy, Miss Cherry, Miss Jessica sweetheart, Samantha A, Dain, Saucysean, Greatgooglymoogly, Candy, Cam, and Rachel for providing me with a means to get back online a little more regularly! (And Courtney!) Thank you girls and guys for being so wonderful and sticking by my side during the rough patches. ^_^
Things have been bad for a while now, and the future is quite uncertain. My house could very well fall in any day, and the contractor we got in touch with a while back has even refused to step foot in the house because he is certain the house will fall in.
Even more serious, is the health issues my family has had recently and how many times I've been woken up in the middle of the night to hear that my grandpa has come so close to death, that they weren't even sure they could do anything for him. But things might be turning around and I can see looking over the names listed, that I've been truly blessed with real, caring individuals. Thank you for the well wishes and thank you for the belated (or otherwise), happy birthday wishes.
I've lost a couple of friends this year and I've occasionally become very depressed, even more so then usual. But knowing that I have people who keep me in their thoughts means a great deal. Thank you girls/guys, and thank you to all of my readers for just stopping by and reading my caps. Have a wonderful holiday season and Happy thanksgiving! ^_^
Jennifer, first of all I hope you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving.and a wonderful shopping spree this weekend; I hope your grandfather gets better too. I know how it feels to have a grandparent thats severely ill ,and to take care of them. I just do what I can to help and tell them I love them each day.
ReplyDeleteI also know how hard and depressing this can be, other factors on top of this doesn't help either.in this case your house, in my case a 3 year relationship crumbling and my finace leaving me for another man. So when I'm feeling down I drink pepsi (best soda ever by the way) and it reminds me of better days, and I get on with the day.
Also if you ever want to talk I can leave my email here :)
Have a happy holiday
Jennifer,
ReplyDeleteThere are few things in this world that can still paralyze me, and most of them involve seeing my loved ones in pain. As I read what's going on in your life recently I struggle to not bow my head and cry as I just can't stand to see someone whom I care for so deeply. I try to think of something to say but everything sounds like a platitude. 'Things will get better...' but I know that they might NOT get better, at least in the short term. 'There's a light at the end of the tunnel...' but sometimes that tunnel is a lot longer than we imagine it could be. 'Keep your head up and smile...' but sometimes its better to let those negative feelings stream down your cheeks.
So more often that I like to admit I just don't say anything. It certainly doesn't help that I'm not around as much and don't have many opportunities to see you on YIM.
So... I'm not going to let this opportunity slip by. I'm not going to let my hesitation and fear of facing someone in pain stop my from saying that I care about you deeply. I think about you often hope that things are going to get better for you. I could say that I've been through similar situations but I haven't had to deal with them like you are... all at once. I will say that I hope at least a part of you is doing well. That all these problems you are experiencing aren't snuffing out that fun loving, quirky, friendly, generous, humorous, true friend that I know you are.
I want you to close your eyes (waitnotyet!) and feel something. Do you feel that? That's me wrapping my arms around you and holding you close. That's me hugging you. I'm not going to say that it's going to be all right, and I'm not going to say that I can understand everything you are going through. I AM going to say that I'm sorry that you have to go through these experiences and that I hope that you are OK.
While I'm celebrating Thanksgiving this year I'm going to be ever so thankful for having a friend like you.
Hi Jennifer, I won't write a big long post here but I wanted to let you know I'm keeping up with what is happening with you as best as I can and thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteOh and yes, this is Mistress Wendy. :)
ReplyDeleteFirst off, I want to apologize for not being able to reply back to each and every one of yall's messages. It's been a very busy week, filled with bad news, (really bad news...) and happy moments. Such as my little brothers Birthday today. So thank you again for showing you care and leaving me some kind words when it matters most. *hugs*
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Thank you for the offer on being there to talk, I would say yes to you leaving your Email here, but I wouldn't want yours to get out to everyone. I've put mine up on the blog before, so I'll just go ahead and leave mine here, Jenniferswallows19@yahoo.com.
I'm sorry to hear that your fiance is leaving you. Especially when it's the holiday season. But I'm assuming it's one of those things that can't be helped, so I'm at least happy to hear that you can find some sort of happiness. EVen if it's a can of soda. *giggle*
I usually try to read something or play a game, so I can get my mind off of it for a while. Of course, it can be difficult to do for me to do some times. I try not to fall into my usual depression habits, but what really seems to help is having friends and family show they care. So thank you for putting a smile on my face, even for a little while. ^_^
@Caitlyn:
ReplyDeleteCaitlyn, I am very moved by your heart felt words and I am kind of having a hard time trying to convey how much they mean to me. It's truly rare to see someone put so much into their words and try to comfort another in pain, through a screen.
But believe me, you have comforted me. It helps a lot to know that there is someone out there, a friend, that cares that deeply. I really can't thank you enough and I don't even know if these words here, can let you know how much I appreciate it.
This last weekend has been a true roller coaster for me and with out going into too many details, this holiday season might one of the most depressing and horribly unforgettable for me, that I have known. I know things can always get worse, and I of course do not want anything like that by saying what I'm going through now is truly awful. But It is.
I am just trying to hold on to the positive things and find other ways to pass my time. And it's thanks to friends like you, who have me in their thoughts and actively show they care, that makes it just a bit more bearable.
I wish I could feel your hug for real, but I can always reread this post and do as you suggest, and feel comforted. Thank you. *hugs*
@Wendy thorne:
ReplyDeleteI had wondered if that was you Mistress. It's wonderful to hear from you, and I hope that your own issues are getting some what better for you. I haven't been at DX for a little while now, But It might not be such a bad idea and get my mind off of some things. If I could get a couple of threads going and to keep going, it might be a nice time sink.
Thank you for leaving a Message Mistress and I hope to see and hear from you again. *hugs* Stay safe and I hope things turn around for the better for you.
@ Jennifer sorry to hear your week hasn't been the best. I promise this week will be even better :)
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